The Wait is almost over

So I went for my second internal exam today and my blood pressure was ridiculous. They checked it like five times and then Theresa came in. I told her some of the things I had been experiencing like headache. Well my blood pressure just kept going up so she talked to the doctor and they ended up sending me to the hospital. Before I left she went ahead and just scheduled me for my six week check up. I think she knew they were going to end up inducing me. I went to the hospital and checked in at the outpatient center. The lady at the check in desk flipped out because my name was Kecia. I got the usual question of why my mom decided to name me that. I mean I don't know what my mom was thinking when she named me. She just liked the name. I met another Kecia before I got taken to my room. They hooked me up to the monitor and started checking me out. They also took blood to check my PH levels. I was there for like three hours. The nurse came in to fill me in on my blood and urine work. She told me they were going to send me home since my blood pressure had went down. She told me I was going to be on strict bedrest and only allowed to get up to go to the bathroom. She told me she really didn't even want me to take a shower, it had to be really short. Well after that whole spill she asked me if I had plans for Sunday, I thought it was a trick question, and was like no. I mean you just put me on bedrest. She then told me I would be coming back in to have my baby :) I was so happy. I am so excited. I can't wait to meet my son. I can't wait to be a mom. I can't wait for it all. They are going to induce me Sunday around 5. So I will have my son by Monday. So exciting. I really can't wait. So I called my mom and her and my nanny are going ahead and coming down tonight. My mom is going to help me clean house and get everything ready since I can't do it because I am in bed. :) When I first told her I was going to have him on Sunday my mom acted like she thought I was lying. She was so excited and kept saying No, your lying and I told her no i am not and explained everything to her. It was really funny. My sister, Jayden, and my papa are coming down on Saturday night or Sunday morning. :) I am so excited for it all. I am nervous too...It's scary to think that it is actually happening. I am a little worried about what it is going to feel like but I took my epidural class...and Kale is worth anything :)

I love having a friend in labor and delivery

Well as of tomorrow I will have been in bed for a week officially. I go for my second weekly check up tomorrow and I am really curious to see how it goes. I have a lot of questions for my midwife. Well I found out today that if my blood pressure is still high, which Kristen, my friend who works in labor and delivery, said I have the signs that it will be that they will probably end up inducing me. Which I have to say I don't mind at all because then my mom will definitely be here for the birth and it will just be planned and a lot better. I also want to be induced if that is what is going to best for me and Kale. However, Kristen did tell me that they probably won't induce me or will try not to until 38 weeks and they might even push it to 38 1/2 if they can or 39.She explained to me that there is a two week window in your due date where you could be two weeks faster then what they think or two weeks slower and that is why they like to wait until 38 weeks so it is not too early. It just depends on how I am doing. That doesn't bother me because that is not that far away. I mean I will be 38 weeks Tuesday. She did tell me though that if my blood pressure is still high then Theresa will probably keep me on bed rest, which really sucks because I am so sick of being in bed. I am ready to be out. My house gets messier and messier by the day and I can't stand it because I am in my nesting point and just want everything to be clean.. I am curious also for tomorrow to see how dialated I am. Last week when Theresa checked me I was 1cm and Kristen said since I have been really crampy that, that is a sign for dialating more so that I should be further along. I really hope I am. I told my sister though watch me still be 1 cm. I also have had some headaches which isn't a good sign and she said I definitely should talk to Theresa about that. I am just getting so unbelievably excited. I so wish that kale wanted to come out tonight. Every time I start to have contractions I get excited and think that maybe it is happening but they never increase in intensity. Some of them have hurt pretty bad but they don't increase in intensity and follow too much of a pattern. Speaking of contractions I am definitely having them right now. So with that said it is hurting a little to bad and I am going to go.

bedrest sucks!!!

So I have officially been on bed rest for 3 days and it ABSOLUTELY SUCKS!! I hate it!
1. because my house now looks like a tornado hit it and I can't get out of bed to clean it.
2. because it is boring to be in bed all day after the first few hours
it is just no fun. I am hoping on next Thursday that either my blood pressure has gone down and i can get out of this bed or if it is still high that we will go ahead and plan a date for that week to be induced. Because I know I would die if I had to be in this bed for 24 days. Ryan has had so much to do this weekend to try and get us ready for the move so he hasn't been able to spend so much time with me in the bed. I understand but I do wish that he could spend time with me.
Ryan was so sweet, I was in the shower getting ready for our pictures and he snuck in the bathroom and put a dozen roses in there and my chocolates. It was soo super sweet! He is such an amazing husband. I did get out of bed for us to get our maternity pictures done because I definitely didn't want to pass that up. I wanted these pictures sooo bad so I figured I could get out of bed for this.
Last night my braxton hicks were so bad that the pain woke me up. I was so, so, so crampy. I thought I might be going into labor and was about to wake up Ryan but I decided to wait to see if the contractions had a pattern. They didn't so I finally fell back asleep and nothing happened. So clearly I was not in labor. I don't want Kale to come this weekend because Theresa is out of town. I talked to her my last doctors appointment and told her that Ryan and I really wanted her to deliver our baby. she is the absolute best doctor. I love her. She is very thorough and takes really good care of me. She said as long as I didn't have him this weekend she would be more than happy to deliver and that we would plan something to make sure she there. :) I definite don't want the horrible midwife Stacy. She royally sucks. I know people who work in labor and delivery and they don't like her and also the more experienced mid-wifes don't like her or agree with the things she says. She is just horrible and I would hard-core stress if she delivered my baby actually there is no way I would let her. I would say sorry you are not touching me or my baby.
Since my last doctors appointment I have been feeling a lot of pressure especially when I use the restroom. I think when she did the exam that she might of sparked something and made me more dialated or made Kale drop or something because it is a lot of pressure!!!!
I can't wait for my son to get here...I just can't wait to meet him!!!

Today is drraaaaaaaaaging by!

Well today I called about some rental pumps because Ryan and I decided to just rent one. It makes more sense. That is what my sister did and it makes more sense just because what if breast feeding doesn't work out or what not. Well I called and priced around and luckily one of the places had the one I wanted or think is best for what I want to use it for which is good.

Ryan and I have an appointment on Saturday, which is ironically Valentines day to have some pictures done, the maternity ones. I am really excited about this because I have wanted to get those done since I found out I was pregnant. I think they are super cute and especially since this is our first child and we will never experience this again. We will have other children but the first is always something special and I just want something to always remember it.

I think it is going to rain today, which I hope it holds off until this evening because Ivy is coming over around 3 ish and we are going on our walk. Yesterday we walked three miles, can you tell I would love to have my son? haha :) I am so out of shape I was out of breath when we finished the second lap, but I made it through the whole three miles. I don't know if walking really works but I figure if anything it is helping me get back in shape, or at least helping me head that way. :) I was reading that you have to be relaxed for labor to start that if you are trying to hard to make it happen or if you are stressed the baby won't come. It went into detail about why. I thought to myself great, my son is never going to come I am probably going to have to be induced because I take after my mom and stress over every little thing and I want him here so bad. So that is two strikes against me haha. My mom said she had to be induced with all of us. I really would love it so much if he comes naturally. SO I am going to do the best I can to relax. I have kind of laid around today and took it easy. I cleaned a little bit but not as much as I normally do but then again our house is practically sparkling because I clean everyday. :) I don't like staying at home and having nothing to do. It's boring just sitting around all day. At least once Kale gets here there will never be a dull moment, between him and getting the house ready to move. I am sure Ryan and I both will be really busy :)

DECISIONS

Since I have come close to having Kale and seem to think he is coming early even though I could be completely wrong and he could co me later I could have to be induced who knows. But it just really got me to thinking about how I want things to be once Kale is born. I really need to talk to Ryan about all of this stuff so we can back each other on all of this. Having both of our mothers down here, I don't mind listening to their advice but in the long run I carried this baby for nine months, he is mine and Ryan's child and I will decide how he needs to be raised and what I do with him and what I don't. I just think that me and Ryan need to talk about that so we are on the same page. Just because the grandparents give us advice and tell us how to do things does not mean we have to listen to them because they are the grandparents we are the parents and in the end we will decide what is right for our son.
I also decided even though we plan on having my mom and his mom, if she is down here in time in the delivery room with us to see the birth of our little bundle of joy, Kale. When I try to breastfeed and am working with the lactation nurse I want them out of the room. I am sure it is going to be really stressful or hard for me to get the hang of breastfeeding and I don't want a million people at once trying to tell me what to do because it will just stress me out. I will ask both my mom and his mom to leave the room and I will breastfeed the baby and then once I have done that then all of our visitors and our parents will be welcome back in the room. Also I don't want to stop there both mine and Ryan's moms will be staying with us for a week. I don't want them hanging over my shoulder when I am breastfeeding at home. So when it is time to feed Kale in a nice way I am going to say that its time and ask them to leave the room. I just think that, that is time for me to spend with my son and I don't want to feel awkward or weirded out with them being around while I am doing it.
Also while they are here I know that they are going to want to hang out with Kale especially since Ryan and I are going to be moving across the country but I carried Kale for nine months and I will finally have the chance to hold him in my arms so when I want him I am going to ask for him. I don't mind them holding him and helping but I just don't want to feel like they are over-stepping their boundaries or being too helpful. I just thought about all of this and just think that is really something that Ryan and I should talk about because I think that it is something that we should have each others backs on. Ryan and I both were raised very differently, not that, that is a bad thing but a lot of times you want to raise your children how you were raised or because that is all you know you think that your way is right so I just think that as long as Ryan and I understand that we need to have open communication and just because my mom is telling us to do one thing and his mom is telling us to do one thing in the long run it is our decision. I just really think it is something important we should talk about.
Well today me and Lou went on our second walk, I am not to sure how far we walked but it was definitely far enough. I feel like I am so out of shape, which I know I am. But I definitely want to walk to help move things along. I read a bunch of web sites on how to help move the process along today. Some websites said that walking helped and some said it didn't. I did read a lot of articles on how bad castroil is and how you should definitely not try that. That a lot of times all it does is give you really bad diaherrea and can also cause the baby to go the bathroom before he/she is born which is bad because it can cause problems during birth. It was neat because I also heard what kinds of foods can help and also nipple stimulation and different things. It was just neat reading about it all. I just really can't wait for my bundle of joy to be born and in my arms.
I have been a little worried, I am scared that I won't know when my contractions start and I also am nervous that I won't know how to count them and won't know how far apart they are or when to go to the hospital. I am just really hoping that my water will break so that way I will know I need to get to the hospital right then. I guess we will just have to see what happens but I definitely plan on talking to my doctor about it!

pooped...with a upper case P

well today i am just absolutely POOPED...Ryan and I got up today at about 11. I didn't sleep the whole night though. I woke up at 5 this morning and tossed and turned for about an hour. I started to worry that I might not be able to go back to sleep but eventually I got comfortable enough to where I could. I always worry that my tossing and turning is keeping Ryan up and I don't want him to be miserable. But luckily it doesn't keep him up. He might wake up for a second but then he is right back to snoring happily. We got up this morning and I cleaned up the house just a little bit not really anything too dramatic and Ivy came over and visited with us for a couple hours. After she left I took a shower and Ryan and I went and ran a bunch of errands. That's when my feet started to feel like someone was beating them with a sledge hammer and they have just kept on since then. They hurt so bad. It is absolutely awful. Hopefully they will not be like this tomorrow because I have a lot of stuff that If would like to get done. I will still be cleaning up after Ryan's grout tomorrow. I have swept our kitchen floor three times and it still feels gritty under my feet. I think he maybe should have put some old sheets down or something. I feel bad for him though, he has so much to get done over the next couple weeks and he works so hard but he just can't seem to put a dent in his list. I told him today that I wish I could have helped grout but I can't. He however did give me the job of cleaning up after him which I can't say I enjoyed too much. haha :) But I was glad to be able to help him. Tomorrow I think I am going to go get his valentines day present that is if i get everything cleaned that I want to. Seeing how this weekend he has wrecked my clean house.

My mom and sister kept texting me all day to see if I was having contractions but I still am not having ones that I can really feel. My mom called me at about 5 today and told me it would be a good time to have Kale because she didn't want to go to work tomorrow. haha. I wish it worked like that.

I am about to go to bed though, I am beat and my husband has finally come to bed to cuddle with me :) I love him!

False alarm

So tonight we had our first false alarm. We got ready because we had nothing packed. It only took us about thirty minutes, but I felt like Ryan was going so slow and I just wanted to get there and figure out what was wrong with me. He kept telling me to calm down that he didn't want to leave anything in case I really was going into labor. He was like your not having contractions. I was like no and if I was I would probably have killed you by now. haha. On the way there he decided to stop at Taco Bell I was slightly annoyed because I was feeling antsy. I wanted to know if I was going into labor or not and if this was the day I was going to get to hold my little baby boy in my arms. Well it turned out to be a false alarm. She checked me and I am 1 cm dialted but she said that I could stay that way for a long time that it was not really a big deal. She also checked and I guess felt his head and said that it was still a little high. However, when they hooked me up to the machine I was having mild contractions. They monitored me for a while and said the baby looked great but my contractions weren't strong enough to keep me there. So I got discharged. Dang it. I wanted my son to be born. I wanted to hold him in my arms, but tonight just was not the night. He decided to be stubborn. Or who knows a couple hours from now I could dialate more and my water could break and I could start having strong contractions. It's all up to God and Kale. When we got to the emergency room I got wheel chaired around. I felt kind of stupid because I was perfectly fine and could walk and all the people in the emergency room were telling me congratulations and stuff. It was kind of funny. Well at least now I know what to expect when I actually do go in there for true labor.

It's so close

So, I am so almost about to be a mom. I only have 31 days left until Kale's due date. I can't believe that it is a month. I know that he is going to come early. I thought he was going to come last night Iwas having two to three contractions an hour but they weren't increasing in intensity and they were in my lower abdomen and not all over which is signs of false labor. But I thought he was going to come. Ryan's mom and my mom say that since I am already having the contractions that they think he is going to come early. Ryan's mom might miss Kale's birth. She booked her plane tickets for March 7th. I was telling Ryan though, that it would really suck if Kale didn't end up coming early and actually came late and his mom came down here and I never went into labor. I know it is hard for her to plan though because she has to get plane tickets and put in at work and everything. She is sad that she might miss his birth. But we told her we will video tape, what we can that is.
So I went walking today and wow when you are pregnant you are so out of shape. Ryan, me and Lou probably walked about a mile and a half and I thought I was about to die. I mean I didn't think I was going to make it back to the house I was all out of breath and really wanted ryan to carry me back. Ryan was laughing and thought it was just hilarious that I was out of breath. But I didn't think it was funny AT ALL. However, I know that walking is supposed to help and it could make him come early or at least on time. I was talking to Tina, one of Ryan's friends wifes last night and she said it really does help to power walk. She did and both of her kids came early. But I do know that everyone is different and Kale will come on his own time. We will just have to see what happens. I am just getting so excited and I want to meet him and hold him in my arms. I am just ready to be a mommy!!

Getting so excited and anxious!

I haven't written in a couple days. I had my shower last weekend and it was wonderful!!! Sooo many people came and I got so many really nice gifts. I swear our whole den was covered in presents! Ryan and I almost didn't have enough room in his truck to bring them all back, but luckily we found a way. Since we got back on Sunday I have been putting everything away it took two whole days but yesterday evening I finally finished. His nursery looks so precious! He already has so many toys and everything. I do have to say we are going to have one spoiled little boy but thats ok!
Lee finally moved out!! Which was a blessing from God. So, since he has left I have been trying to get the house really clean! We are going to put my bed in his room so that our family will have a bed to sleep in when they come when the baby is born. I am curious to see how it is going to go with both grandmas here at the same time. Because I know my mom is a freak and loves babies and is not going to want to share her time with him what so ever and I am sure it will be the same for his mom. And I know that I am probably not going to want to share him AT ALL AT FIRST! Actually I know I am not going to want to AT ALL!
I am still having braxton hicks...It's so weird because I freak out and start to pay close attention because if I have more than four contractions in an hour I am supposed to go to the hospital. That hasn't happened yet! I can't wait for him to get here if he wanted to come tonight I would be so happy! I hope that he isn't stubborn and does not try to stay in me way over the due date. I really don't want to have to be induced. I have heard such horror stories about it. But then my mom was induced with every single one of us, and she didn't say it was bad. Also, my sister was induced with Jayden and her birth was easy and quick. So, I guess we will just see what happens. I guess a plus of being induced would be that everyone could plan and make it here for the birth. But I am still hoping that he comes naturally on his own time and early! When I start going to the doctor every week I am going to start power walking to speed along the process, so probably in about two more weeks.