Cry It Out

I hate hearing Kale cry. I am one of those moms who comes running when she hears his painful scream. I can't just let him cry. The way I look at it is he is a blessing. I mean so many things went wrong with my pregnancy. They tried to tell me I was having a tubal pregnancy and that this would affect me having a baby later on. I can still remember the pain of knowing that I had been pregnant but would not be able to have this baby. I was a mess. I cried for four days until I found out that my pregnancy hormone was doubling. Then had to wait (because of stupid Stacy who ovbiously did not care about me or my baby to get her crap together...or actually I had to get a new midwife and never see her again....to me she was the enemy..) Just all the things I went through Kale is a blessing. I know I don't have the best patience of any mother...sometimes I get really frustrated which I think every mother does whether they admit it or not. However, this little boy is my everything and I worked really hard to get him into this world and so hearing him cry just breaks my heart. My husband, however, does not feel the same way. I know I spoil him but I will tell everyone I think that you spoil your first child as a baby. You just don't know, you are learning. I am sure I run to him way too much and I am sure I might regret it when he gets a little bit older but you live and learn.

So...back to last night...Ryan had told me that he would watch Kale so I could go to bed early. He got home and started watching him. Kale and him took a nap and I got ready to go to the gym. My two little boogers slept from a little after 4 until 6:15 Ryan said. That could be one of the reasons it was so hard to get my tiny stinker to bed. He fell asleep around eight thirty. It was great!! Well I asked Ryan to move him to his bed and Ryan was looking on the internet and said he would in a little bit. I should have just moved him myself. However, I didn't. I went into the bedroom to go to sleep. I came in the living room to tell Ryan something and my little stinker was WIDE AWAKE. GRRR. Ryan said well if he was really going to go to sleep he would still be asleep (making up excuses for not moving him) YEAH RIGHT! So Ryan told me he had him and to go back to sleep. Well Ryan puts him in his bed awake..comes into our room and turns on the monitor....so much for letting me go to bed early..I get to hear my son scream in my ear and there is no sleeping through that. Ryan would let him cry for awhile go in there and try and calm him down, trying to calm him down by telling him shhh go sleep....it's ok....but not getting him out of his crib only made Kale cry that much harder...this went on for about 30 minutes...well then it was ten and time for him to eat again...if he was up which he never is but tonight was. I knew once he ate it would help calm him down and he would go right to sleep..I told Ryan it was time for him to eat but Ryan didn't want to feed him???!?!?!? excuse me?!?!??! He said he didn't want to get him out of his bed...I told him I didn't care if he got him out of his bed or not but that Kale needed to eat. Finally Ryan fixed Kale a bottle. After he fed him he went straight to sleep. However, ryan went to make sure the front door was locked and my husband is loud he does not think he is but he just does not know how to be quiet...he can't shut a door quiet...talk quietly...really anything..I love him to death but he just can't. well he somehow mangaes to slam the door or make the door make a loud noise while seeing if the front door was locked..well Kale's room is closest to the front door and it made him stir so he started crying again and continued to cry for five minutes and finally went to sleep. He actually slept decent until 4 woke up had a bottle and went back down till 7. I can't complain too much about that. I just wish he would sleep until 7 like he used to and not wake up at 4 and 5...but it is like someone told me we are on their schedule...they are in charge right now! Which is very true!