First Night Ryan Was Gone

I have been really lucky as an air force wife. Ryan has not really left me for a long period of time since we were dating. He had the back surgery and couldn't deploy or TDY so he has been around. When I heard he was going to be leaving me for five weeks I was really sad. Now I am seeing how the other half lives and I don't like it! I have ALWAYS been a scaredy cat for as long as I can remember. I really don't know if I want to share this bit of information but what the heck....I slept with my parents until I was in the seventh grade because I had chronic nightmares or would just scare myself....After that when my sister and I shared a room and I had a nightmare we would share a twin bed...hers or mine! haha! Because I am such a scaredy cat that is how I talked Ryan into us getting our first dog, Lou. He is an American Bulldog and he looks pretty scary (he scared the cable guy the other day and the cable guy asked me to put him up....he does his job). I told Ryan I needed a big dog to protect me while he was away. So he got me Lou. Ryan left on Sunday and it was weird. I decided at about nine I was going to lay in bed and watch a movie to get me tired. The movie ended at about eleven and I just could not fall asleep. At this point I had turned on the bathroom door and cracked it so I had a kind of night light. I then decided to allow both dogs to get on the bed. Winston snuggled close to me and lou laid at the bottom of the bed...so I just pretended Ryan was in bed with me and it made me fall asleep a lot quicker. However, getting used to new house noises takes some time. I heard this noise and both dogs raised their heads. I immediately thought someone was in the house and grabbed my cellphone and typed in 911 and was ready to hit dial if I heard anything else...haha but I didn't...After that it took me about thirty minutes to reassure myself that no one was in the house and to just go to sleep... my body finally listened to me...I have now took a step down I don't keep the bathroom light on all night and don't freak out if I hear the house settling BUT the dogs do sleep with me and the t.v. stays on all night...I think I am doing a little bit better...by the time Ryan gets back I will be a pro! :) I am trying to talk him into us getting a security system :) We shall see!